I hate my life and what it has become. I hate fighting for what reason. It is like a freddy kruger movie where it keeps on replaying over and over. I get so mad and my ears burn like fire and there is a ringing in my head. all I want is for it to stop. He says I want people to feel sorry for me. I don't. Why do I gain for pitty. Like I said before I past being the victim. I look at him and I feel such hatred and I don't want to. I can picture myself with a knife just going in. He controls everything. I know I must leave how much more can I take?