I am totally bumbed What is my purpose here? I hate my life so much. He is nothing but a fucken liar. Why why why do I stay. I just want to sleep and never wake again. My head hurts and I give and give for what? Does God really care? I know I put myself in this situation. I try to do right and I never seem to get ahead. I have to hide money and my belongings just so I don't get them pawned or taken. I am fucken 33 years old I do not need this. Would I be better off dead? Would anyone notice or care? He told me once I would be doing everyone a favor if I would just kill myself because no one loved me. I think he is right.
hey girl, I hate that you have such an internal struggle going on. Only YOU have the power to free yourself from this situation. Please know that you are worth it. You deserve to be without dysfunction in your life, and unfortunately the only one with the power to change the course of YOUR destiny. I wish you the strength to do so.
What is my purpose here? I hate my life so much. He is nothing but a fucken liar. Why why why do I stay. 
I just want to sleep and never wake again. My head hurts and I give and give for what? Does God really care? I know I put myself in this situation. I try to do right and I never seem to get ahead. I have to hide money and my belongings just so I don't get them pawned or taken. I am fucken 33 years old I do not need this. Would I be better off dead? Would anyone notice or care? He told me once I would be doing everyone a favor if I would just kill myself because no one loved me. I think he is right.
