Hello I haven't written in a long time. alot has happened. I was last in Minnesota with my sister. He had found out about my blogs thats why I left him. he was furious at the fact that I wrote all about us in detail. I explained the best I could and after a what seemed forever I was fogiven and i left. I went to stay with my sister in Minn. I got word a week later that my step son was hurt and I came back. Well I am back with him. I know that I should know better and why I am back.It has been crazy. I have in rolled in school and am going to do forensics. I am an wreck. We went to counsling for what ever its worth. I know a lot of you are saying what a fucking dumb ass she was gone and went back. a few of you have rejected personal emails because I came back and I understand. I feel weak and embarresed at the thought that I couldnt be stronger and that I feel I need this man. I dont know if he will find these blogs but I know that I only have my self to blame and I wish I could be stronger and have not came back. feel like this is all I ma destin for. If anyone will talk to me please lend me an ear. I understand if noone wants to speak up again